Category Archives: Social Posts

Step One

I finally admitted not only to myself, but another individual of my failures recently. It’s been a humbling and painful day but it’s the first step towards progress. I had to swallow my pride and realize what I was doing was wrong and not acceptable behavior. I had to catch the problem before it became a real problem – a problem out of control. I never want to go back to my past I’m questioning myself in how I let it get to this. How did it happen? What did I do wrong? How can I fix it ongoing? How did I make it through all the pain only to fold now? For now it’s back to basics – prayer, taking life one day at a time, being honest, not trying to handle it on my own, and seeking help.

Using Ryan Eagle Google+

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I decided that I was going to start using my Ryan Eagle Google+ account tonight (on a very limited basis). I’ve been trying to figure out which social network could be used for what (ie: tumblr for my ramblings) and I’ve yet to figure it out – but I think it’s the next front runner. Regardless, I really like Google+’s integration offsite including post embedding and other things. I can’t ignore the profile, it surprisingly gets a fair amount of traffic and I’ve left it neglected for ages. I might as well update it from time to time.

Current Goals, Finally Updated

After about two years I finally got around to updating my goals section. I decided that I’m going to use my tumblr to ramble about each goal, then come up with conscience blog posts about what each goal means to me. The biggest change since last updating it is how few “material” goals there are on here – quite the change from even two years ago.

Regardless, it’s been nice to blog lately on my tumblr and here over the past couple months because it’s really allowed me to reflect on myself – something I have not done for a long time. I want to be able to look back, just like I did when I setup this blog, and see what I did to get where I’m at.

We Are Keeping It

I woke up and my entire life changed.
Literally days after making a tumblr post about my future I wake up to news that I would have never expected. I’m still in shock it happened in the first place (I’m not that reckless) considering the protective measures we took. I had no clue that sje would ever even consider keeping a baby considering the circumstances, but life takes you directions you had no clue you were going to go. All I knew is that I had to man up and support whatever decision she made.

For me, the decision was pretty clear cut and logical. But for my girlfriend, the decision wasn’t as easy as even she expected. When you’re detached from situations like this it’s very easy to say what you’d do, but when real life hits it was a lot more challenging for her. She didn’t know what to do and I had to support her the best I could, sharing my opinion but not pushing it. The back and forth struggle she went through killed me more than anything, I didn’t know what to expect. To be honest, I’m just glad we have a final decision. I couldn’t see her like that anymore and I couldn’t survive another week with the pressure. I’m scared to death for a dozen reasons and happy for a dozen more, but I’ll reserve that for a blog post down the line.

Running from Emotions

Here is a prime example of me getting overwhelmed and running away from emotions and the situation. There was just too much on my plate – from the one year anniversary of my brothers death to the life-changing news I just heard. I needed to escape. I needed to run…


Kyle Eagle Death – One Year Later

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My most painful and vivid memory is that of Kyle Eagle’s Death. The entire family came barreling into the house without saying a word. They stepped up the stairs, got to my bar, and told me what had happened – Kyle Eagle, my brother, had stopped breathing… Social Experiement

Now that I’ve discovered this post embed feature I’m going to be doing a lot more interlinking, especially for events that change my life. I currently use about five or six social networks so sometimes searching and figuring out when something happened (where I made the update) can be a chore.

Anyways, I made a post about how Became Insightful and referenced how I made a single Twitter post with my Profile link just to gauge interest – a social experiment to see if people even bothered about me anymore (part of me hoped I was forgotten & part of me didn’t). It’s amazing that it has only been a little over a month since I posted it my profile and stopped hiding. From day one the questions poured in and I love answering them – especially the mean and challenging ones

Some say I should have kept my mouth shut (I agree) but I can’t act like someone that I’m not. I still regret what happened, but at the same time I shouldn’t feel ashamed with my past – I tried harder than anyone in the company and took the most loss. Keeping quiet, eating shit, letting people rip me apart, and essentially acting like someone I’m not was beginning to wear on my emotionally. It’s not who I am and I’m glad I could get some stuff off my chest without having to hide anymore.